College....

.... is so stressful ! Well college, but life in general is stressful. So I got rejected from almost all of the UCs I applied to and I am just waiting for UCI now. It is not a very pleasant feeling when you hear all your other friends and how happy they are because they got accepted into this school and that school while you did not. I mean I should be happy for them because they deserved it for all their hard work but I just don't like the feeling of it. Haha ! I guess I will get over it soon but in the moment it hurts. It just made me reflect back on all the extra curriculum that I did and all the time I sacrificed for it rather than focusing on my grades. I do regret joining too many things and taking more things than I can handle but in the end, I still feel happy with what I am doing. I sometimes have doubt about myself. Whether I am good enough or not. However, at the end of the day, I realized that all did not matter. I am proud of myself for what I have accomplished for the past 4 years. I should not be comparing myself to others because I am content with what I have. No matter where I go or where I end up, as long as I work hard and strive to do my best, I will be more than just fine :)

I feel like all the "prestigious" UCs are just a label. Essential, it is just a school that you go to and get an education. What matters is what you get out of it and whether if your experience is worthwhile or not. I mean you can go to UCLA and study the same materials as a Cal State but at UCLA you need to study 24/7 and have no life because you're professor expect you to all be smart. Not only that you have to compete with other students who are pretty smart also which makes you feel like shit because if you can't catch up, you're a goner.

Because once you get a job, no one will care about what school you go to! You just live your life :) as long as you build relationships that last for a long time and are happy with what you are doing, there is nothing more you could really ask for! People that you meet along the way will respect you for your character and talent not a temporarily 30 minutes fame of "oh I got accepted into _____ "

As of right now though, I am considering going to UCR. There are about 3 months left of senior year ! I will definitely want to make the best of it.